Waz up in the neighborhood? I hope all is well with you guys...'cuz it's not so good over here. It feels like it's just thing after thing...the biggest and worst thing is something about my mom, I'm not sure if I'm allowed to tell anyone. If you leave a comment I may be able to tell you. It has to do with church. It was hard for me to even be there. Everything I did just made me want to cry. It's even worse because the ministers and old people all know about, so people just kept coming over and saying how how sorry they were for me. I just hate getting sympathy. It is worse knowing that everyone else knows..it just makes it more real. I just try to forget about it though and put on a smile. I'll get over it. I hate it when people see me upset, other than my family, and I know talking about it will make me more upset, so I'm really sorry if you ask me and I don't tell you. The more people know, the more permanent it becomes. I'm still holding on to hope that she will change her mind, I guess...
The second thing is that my friend (who I'm calling annie for her privacy) is wrecking her life, and there is nothing I can do about it. I have tried so hard to get her to see what she is doing, but she is...stubborn, I guess. It's really hard for me to watch anyone make mistakes and refuse to be helped. She says she wishes she were dead. She refuses to get help. I'm so scared that everyday might be her last. I really doubt that she would go through with it, but still..she used to be my best friend. She has been going way to far with boys, boys that I think are perverted, sick dirtbag druggies. One of them smokes! I'm just so scared for her. It's like watching someone drive closer and closer to the edge of a cliff, even though she is reading all of the warning signs. The warning signs are stupid and useless to her. She is a wreck. Please pray for her. I'm just praying that God will somehow reach out and turn her around, look her in the eye and make her see that she can not keep on driving toward the cliff.
The third thing is that I am grumpy about these things, and my family has definately noticed. I really do not want to talk about it, so they just think I'm purposefully being annoying. It's so frusterating!
Thank for listening to me vent! It's really not as bad as all that. Do not, I repeat do NOT, pity me. Seriously, I hate that. I'm really fine, I just needed to get it off my chest.
Love you guys,
Evil Strawberry (I'm getting tired of these nicknames so I'm just gonna go by either that or my real name)
p.s. My real name is Megan haha!
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